Today is my last day as a 35-year old. I will be turning the ripe old age of 36 which means I am one step closer to 40! I am not one of those who dreads aging but I do find myself a little on the depressed side but it has nothing to do with becoming a year older.
I'm certainly not living the life I was dreaming of living but I do have a lot of blessings. I don't make enough at my job to be rich but it gets the bills paid and I love the work I get to do everyday. I wish I owned my own home. I wish I had a fancy new car that I wasn't just waiting on to die. I wish this weight loss journey would be easier. I wish my marriage was better. I wish my step kids listened better and learned from their mistakes. I wish my family was closer. I wish I had more friends.
The list goes on and as I sat here typing this the thought crossed my mind "So does everyone else". I'm not special. We all have what we have and we all probably sometimes wish for more.. or better. Some of us are more content than others. Most days, I manage. Some days I am miserable. And once and awhile I'm even happy.
One thing is for sure. As each day passes and each birthday gets celebrated - it makes it abundantly clear that I am not getting any younger. I have been blessed with life and I need to get busy living it. I have to stop feeling sorry for myself and if I really want change, to go after it. I am too young to settle for tears on my pillow. I have too much to offer the world to be tucked away, hiding from new experiences. So my birthday wish for me... is that I put time and energy into myself, my family, my friends... And help them be happy but also help myself. It's amazing to Pay it Forward to others but sometimes it's good to pay it back to yourself.
