I'm Having A Day

You know the type. Where everything and everyone seems destined to annoy or irritate me. I am not sure if it is lack of sleep, patience or just being overwhelmed with the seemingly endless list of things that need to be done everyday, that fall on me and only me to consider/complete.

This is work, home, personal life, pets, kids. Lately it seems even remembering to breath is tiresome. I've also been battling some aches and pains of my own that I pretty much have to suck it up, ignore, grin and bare it because quite frankly - I don't have time or energy to worry about. I tell people I am hurting but it doesn't seem to matter to anyone else, so I guess why should it matter to me.

Alright, enough feeling sorry for myself! That gets old really fast too (Oh and please, I know... I know... I need to take care of myself, I am no good to anyone else if I am hurt, blah blah. I get it)

See? Truly irritable. Even my own whining up there ^^ has annoyed me.  So now I am going to complain about other people. Things I see that just bother me.

So there's this guy named God who is a dear friend of mine. Okay, more like a guide and savior. I've always believed in him - always. I just have a hard time with everything that is supposed to go with him. Namely - the bible and moreso, how it is left open to interpretation or how some people consider it not only their right but duty to judge others based upon how they perceive the written word. I don't care what passage you show me or how you twist the words to fit your belief spectrum - there isn't a soul on this planet who is the ultimate judge. Only the big man upstairs has the right (and ability) to do that. This is how I see it.

If I don't like alcohol. I don't have to drink it.
If I don't like gay people. I don't have to be gay.
If I don't like to swear. Then I don't have to fucking swear.

But what difference does it make what my neighbour does? Isn't that between him and God? Aren't those things he needs to worry about instead of me? Don't I have enough to focus on in my own life without sending other people to hell? Don't YOU?

Moving on.

If you hate drama. If you truly hate drama - you don't need to tell everyone how much you hate drama. You avoid it. You erase it. You remove it. You deflate it. You don't create it.

Also.

I've mentioned this before. Those people who suck? Specifically, the Do-For-Me'ers. I've seen some folks take this to an all-time new high. I know over the past few months I have reached out and asked for help. It pained me to do. Even more so, it pained me to accept it. Everytime I spent a dollar that was donated or ate a meal that was cooked, or accepted a ride that was offered - I always blinked back the tears (Still do) thanked God for my blessings and the people in my life and took a deep breath. It is hard asking for help.

But for some people out there? It's an art form! They don't just ask for help - they EXPECT it.  And when you give it, they act like they're doing you a favor. They're too busy crying over their own pathetic existence and blaming everyone else for their fuck ups in life that they end up missing out on amazing opportunities, chasing dreams, finding love, starting families, bettering themselves. That's sad. I don't understand it. I don't know how people can wake up and not do everything they know how to make it through the day. It's one thing to ask for help when you really need it. It's an entirely different thing to act like a slug and suck the life out of everyone who loves and cares for you, endlessly, and then suck a little bit more. You seriously suck. Literally AND figuratively.


Lastly,

When you post something on Facebook, expect a response. And understand that not everyone may agree with you. Don't throw a hissy fit if someone, somewhere, in this vast and complex planet may actually have a different perspective. Consider it, think about it and then decide if you care. If you don't, awesome. If you do, maybe it's food for thought.

Make Love. Not War.

P.S. Have I mentioned lately? I hate cancer.